While we were home visiting my Mom and sister, I wanted to take Asher to the cemetery. I don't like going there and haven't been since we took Annika when she was just a baby, but I felt like I should take Asher. It was very peaceful and Asher was perfect, even though we had to wake him up when we got there. It's hard to believe he has been gone for 12 years. Sometimes it feels like forever and other times it feels like yesterday. I hate that he never met Derek and hate even more that he never met my children. I miss him. A lot.